Showing posts with label general moaning. Show all posts
Showing posts with label general moaning. Show all posts

Monday, 8 October 2012

I missed a day

Actually yesterday, but for some reason Saturdays post says it was published on Sunday, so Saturday is the day I missed?

Yeah.

So, today's been a bit odd. But odd days are OK sometimes.
And I have a job interview on Wednesday - it's only for one day a week and if I get it we won't actually be any better off cash-wise (because it'll take me over the earning threshold with my Student Allowance), but as we're looking at buying a house next year, and a measly one-day-a-week job will mean the bank will lend us up to $50000 more. Which would be good.

And it will get me out of the house meeting people, and it's a great excuse to get a long-over-due haircut (which I'll still have even if I don't get the job).

Monday, 1 October 2012

Blogtoberfest

Already?!?!

Ah, my poor wee neglected blog...

Ahem... the object of Blogtoberfest is to blog every day during the month of October - simple right?
Well, I managed to arse it up last year - after getting off to a roaring start, I petered out after a couple of weeks.
This year  - I'm going to attempt to not only blog every day - but I've also signed my new blog up for it too - Most of my arty stuff will be over there, and any possible doll related potential giveaway might possibly be over there too. Maybe. At some point.

Cheers,
Me.

Thursday, 22 December 2011

2011 round-up

Well, this is my 100th post!


And boy, has it taken a while, or what?
My first post was on the 9th of April, 2007.

That's 1725 days

To commemorate this auspicious occasion I have stolen this list o' questions from Hannah Moskowitz who is a young author whose blog I found when I was looking for tips for managing the NaNoWriMo entry that I never got around to even starting this year.

Sorry in advance, this is really long, I'll still love you even if you don't read it all...

1. What did you do in 2011 that you'd never done before?
I left a job without having another job lined up. I've never been unemployed - even when I was on maternity leave for the Sprog I had freelancing illustration jobs on the go.

In the current economic climate that makes me a bit irresponsible, right? But I have a long term plan, and I couldn't put it into action without leaving my job.

2. Did you keep your New Years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't make New Years' resolutions any more. Too many of them were along the lines of "I will lose X amount of weight/fit into X-sized dress".
Outside of the fact that I used to use resolutions as an excuse to beat myself up mentally; If there is something in my life that needs to change, why should I need to wait for a certain day to change it? Just do it.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
A couple of guys at the Day-Job became fathers (one for the second time).

4. Did anyone close to you die?
No, thank gods.

5. What countries did you visit?
I flew back down to the South Island for my Mum's birthday, but that doesn't count as a different country :)

6. What would you like to have in 2012 that you lacked in 2011?
A garden, and maybe a dog. (I want a German Shepard, the Husband and Sprog want a Labrador. I think I'm going to lose)

7. What dates from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
The 16th of December was my last day at the Day-Job, which I'd been at since '96 as a student then as a staff member. That's my entire adult life.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
It's not official yet, and may not be until the new year, and I can't really talk about it. BUT IT'S COOL.

9. What was your biggest failure?
NaNoWriMo. I didn't even START.
I have a rough outline, and some characters sorted (no names - because I'm terrible at that), but just didn't start.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Does the return of panic attacks count? Because, NOT FUN. My depression was really difficult to manage this year too.
Also I pinched a nerve high up in my neck a few weeks ago, and it's been causing truly awful headaches.
Boo.

11. What was the best thing you bought?

Exciting, right?
A bottle of Vitex (chasteberry) tablets. It's supposed to help even out hormone levels, and as I was All Over The Place emotionally - figured it couldn't hurt. It took about a month to start feeling more steady (and the first couple of weeks on it: to say I had mood swings would be a massive understatement) Also, interestingly, I lost interest in chocolate. I mean, I'll still eat it if you put it in front of me, 'cos it's delicious - I just won't go out of my way to get some.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
The Husband, specifically on the occasion of an inebriated man trying to get into our house at 8am on a Saturday.
Full-on Papa Bear - it was awesome.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Rent. Food. Power. Just keeping up with living.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Foxes. srsly.

16. What song will always remind you of 2011?



This is such an earworm.


17. Compared to this time last year, you are:
Happier?
Yes.

Richer?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
No.

Thinner?
Meh.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
I really needed to spend more time making dolls, I was able to carve out a bit more time for it than I had last year, but still was very unsatisfied with the amount of attention I could give to it.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Stressing.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
Christmas was spent with the Husband's family.

22. Did you fall in love in 2011?
A little more every day...

24. What was your favorite TV program?
Game of Thrones.

Poor Ned. :(

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I don't think my "list" has grown.
(It's quite a short list really)

26. What was the best book you read?
I don't know that it was the *best* book I've ever read, but it was certainly the one I had been looking forward to the most.


SIX YEARS I've been waiting for this book. I started reading this series in '98 or so when I found a paperback A Game of Thrones in a $5 book bin.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
I can't think of one, but the Sprog's is Lady Gaga. So guess what Santa got her, and then guess what we had to listen to FIFTEEN times on Christmas morning.

Thanks Santa.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?

 

The third act was a bit boring (ironic, because that was where all the big action bits happened), but leading up to it, and the short bit at the end were fantastic.
The Husband "Wouldn't rate it" (whatever that means), but he didn't like Superman Returns either, so his opinion does not count.

31. What did you do on your birthday. And how old were you?
I had dinner cooked for me, and the Sprog pretended that our living room was a fancy restaurant. I am the grand old age of 33.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
One of these.
But APPARENTLY it's more responsible to pay for electricity and catfood.
Shesh.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2011?
Um, comfortable?

34. What kept you sane?
Sculpting, which I didn't really get enough time to do this year.
And tumblr (Be warned - I'm super geeky over there), I've only had an account there since June and I've done 602 posts. My gods, I'm 14 again.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Either I have a thing for the "square" superheroes, or I'm into men wearing this shade of blue...


36. What political issue stirred you the most?
We had a General Election this year, and the centre-right party got in.
Boo.

37. Whom did you miss?
This might sound odd, but, I missed me. It's related to question 10, I guess.


And for the hell of it, lets end on a sneak-peek of something I'm working on:


He still needs HEAPS of work (I'm contemplating redoing his back for the third time; his shoulders are looking a bit weird; and, yet again, I've left arms/legs/hands/feet for last), but will eventually be jointed-up then hopefully I'll be able to get him 3D printed through Shapeways.

Friday, 14 October 2011

Monster High Dolls

The Sprog is seriously into these - and boy, do I want one.


In fact, my mother found a broken Frankie (and bought it for $5) for me. But the kid wasted no time in nicking the doll off me once I'd replaced the elastic.

Little Horror.

Sunday, 2 October 2011

Much ADO about stuff.

Recently ADO - Art Dolls Only advertised for new members. (Go on - poke around their blog - it's awesome!)
Their membership is closed to new members for most of the year, and I managed to finagle a place during the latest (very short) open period.
I'm extremely excited to be part of this group of amazing artists. And I expect it to be very good for me.

You see - despite doing arty things for my hobbies and sanity projects, (and my Day-Job), for pretty much my entire life - I don't always feel like I have a right to call myself an artist. Sometimes I feel like a big fraud.

Now, I know that this is my Depression/Anxiety talking. I know that.

I'm a skilled draughtsperson, and I have a good eye for colour, composition and whatnot. I sculpt well, and I can sew, and knit, and I can paint and I've taught life-drawing classes and ALL KINDS OF STUFF. I'm good enough at some of these things that I am paid to show other people how to do them.

But still, there's a voice in my head that whispers "Fraud". Sometimes it yells.

I've been thinking about this a lot recently. The Day-Job involves teaching aspiring artists, and the single biggest problem that the students I work with have to overcome isn't how to draw well. Drawing is easy.
It's believing that the work you are producing is worth showing people. That your worth as a person isn't tied up with how people receive the things you make. It's why students who have done almost all the required work miss deadlines. Or don't show their Tutor. Or don't submit stuff for group critiques.

It's why I have a drawer full of incomplete dolls, and why it takes me ages to work up the courage to list finished ones for sale. (My Etsy store sat empty for almost two years after I opened it.) It's why I go weeks without updating this blog (and avoiding it because I feel guilty about not updating only makes things worse).
Why, if I get a nice comment about my dolls I crash emotionally - I often end up in tears later in the day.

I know not to do this - that is restrictive and not good for me. I advise students about how to deal with and stop this behaviour all the time.
But still...

Now, the above isn't a whiny "lavish attention on and love meeeee", I'm just getting so sick of letting my stupid malfunctioning brain chemicals get the upper-hand on my behaviour. Joining ADO is something that I think will help force me to face these issues far more definitively.
It's all been a bit heavy - sorry.

So, um yeah.
~OH NO! what's that over there?!?~
^ That's what we in the business call a smoooooth deflection.

Here's a colourful dragon sketch I did on Monday:

I used every colour of watercolour-pencil I have!
And some paperdolls that I made in February. (See what I mean? My gods, FEBRUARY. Why have I not shown them?)

Steampunky!              Sassy!                Stroppy!

Gosh, I do go on.
I'll have to try to be a bit more concise and up-lifting tomorrow. :D

Monday, 18 July 2011

New blogger dashboard

Well, I finally got upgraded to the new blogger dashboard - it took forever.
My delightful workmate was upgraded on the first day that Blogger rolled out the changes, and I have been quietly seething with jealousy.

I'm still getting used to the new layout.  I like it so far, but then again, I haven't tried anything strenuous with it yet.

No photos today, but I intend to take and post some tonight.

My boy doll is coming along slowly. I'm trying to minimize the number of times each piece is cured. so am being far more careful with each piece as I sculpt, rather than my usual slap-happy approach.
I'm in the middle of refining the legs. I'd been working in a mix of clays (because I like to use a stiffer clay), but I miscalculated the amount of clay that I needed, and I didn't have any white Du-kit left, so his legs and arms are plain ol' SuperSculpey. I intend to mould and cast him when he's done - so it doesn't matter if the prototype is different colours - but I am a little annoyed.
He's going to be double jointed - but I want the knee and elbow pieces to be as unobtrusive as possible.
BECAUSE I NEED MORE CHALLENGES.

The Dragon has been painted. I had a heck of a time with the gloss over the eyeballs. Lumpy and messy. Blergh.
But, he's OK now. Well as OK as a faux "taxidermied" head can be...
I think I'll drill into the neck so that he'll attach to a base better.
I should have done that before painting I guess. Here's hoping he doesn't shatter!


In totally unrelated news, I have an odd rash on my wrist - it itches like hell. Do. Not. Want.

Friday, 1 July 2011

My Poor Neglected Blog, Elves, Dragons, and a Bishie*

Well, I've been a bit slack with the blogging recently.
Partly due to my computer being a stupid-head and dying, and partly due to dealing with a depressive period. Which sucks - and isn't a very good excuse - but there you go.

I have been busy whilst hiding from the world though:

Two of the Elves are finished - and will be posted on Etsy along with the Floofy pink lady, as soon as I've taken decent photos.


 And the third Elf is waiting to be dressed.


I've sculpted a scarred "pirate" elf who will have a hook-hand, and also needs a costume. And a body too, while I'm at it...


The paperclay "dollhouse" BJDs have been giving me a real hard time with their fiddly little arms/hands - so I'm cheating and making them out of polyclay. (no photos - boo!)

DRAGON!
Who will be getting painted this weekend, and then I have to find a small plaque to hang him off.


I've been working on a commissioned BJD too (secret - no pics)

And dug out a very old half done full figure sculpt and am attempting to salvage it.


I've started altering a "My Scene" Barbie that I brought early last decade, that then got chewed on by a cat, and stolen by the Sprog (who told me could have the broken doll back if I wanted - generous kid). I've wiped off her face paint and chopped off the chewed-up hand - I'm debating trying a re-root, or just giving her a wig, as her hair is really ratty. Also no photos. :)

I have also started another BJD - this time a "mature tiny" - or a 1/6 scale doll.
For a change, it's a he. *bishōnen or "pretty boy".



At the Sprog's request - I've made a "Zuko" head for him, but this won't be his "official" head if I get him to the point of saleabilty. Fanart is fun - but it's a bit iffy to make it for sale due to copyright issues.

So, that's what I've been up to in the - gosh - 66 days since my last blog post...

Tuesday, 12 October 2010

Artist's Mannequin

I seem to be 'collecting' these things:

I don't know why.
They're something that tends to be bought by new art students and people who want others to know that they're "Arty".

Maybe that's why I have so many of the damn things - They get abandoned with me when their well meaning and eager young owners realize just how useless they are as a drawing aid (unless the thing you want to draw is a wooden artist's mannequin, of course).

They do, however, make a great substrate for painting on....



I also had a go at "fixing" the pelvis on this one - with the end result that its arms are now way too long for it's body. Oh well.

I went a bit mad with the hotglue gun too...

Monday, 2 August 2010

Finally got some new batteries for the camera...

...rechargeable ones.

Bye-bye Crappy-phone-photos!

Hello Slightly-less-crappy-camera-photos!

Well, it's been a month, and I got three of five things ticked off my "MUST DO" list.
Here's number three:

 A pink Kells Wyvern for the Sprog

pattern by Smallworks
Of the remaining things: one is *almost* finished (hopefully tomorrow) - and the other (the Nav'i) I've just not gotten very far on - I'm just not "feeling" the sculpt at the present time...
Still I got three UFO's out of the way. Feels good.

I also started about six more things :D
Here's a couple of them:

huge cloth doll - she's about 2 foot tall.

Papercut "cameo"

over-exposed Dwarf.
And this wee guy was found in a box in the cupboard - I made him when I was a student - back in the mid-'90's. My Husband provided the paint job.

Friday, 2 July 2010

blurt...

Gosh - I've been in a bit of a slump recently and so much has happened - time to pull myself up by my bootstraps and get on with stuff!

I dragged out my pretty journal and filled it with lists!

I made a list of my half-finished projects (it's very long) - I intend to get five of them finished before the end of this month (I've already ticked off one of the five - attaching the legs to a plush pony that I'd made for the Sprog three years ago!).

I've got a list of stuff to list on Etsy - I need to take photos (which means I need to get batteries for the camera...)

... speaking of the camera - I need to take better photos of my resin girls.

Also - I've become a bit ... obsessed with vinyl toys.


I customised a 3" Dunny as a Big Daddy (that's a mini Polly Pocket as a Little Sister), and bought some cheap vinyl toys from Look Sharp for the Sprog and I to play with.
Then I won a twitter-based competition a few weeks ago! (but I'm NOT TO TOUCH the Munny I won until I have finished the five projects mentioned above...)